Friday, December 11, 2009

my feelings towards being sec 3 in 20 days

12/11/2009 10:54:00 PM / 0 comments

i m so not looking forward to next yr... i jus 'upgraded' to upper sec in my church youth ministry n i change cell group... previous my group was a fun loving n very active bunch of kids. i look forward to going to church every sunday because i had frens like tat n of cos to worship GOD whole heartedly. but i dunno y now i dun feel like doing these 2 things.. my group members change n i m seperated from my frens.... now my grp consist of rachel teh, jing yun, shannon, crystal and crystal frens(i think u wont noe wad i m talking about but i jus wanted to type this out). rachel is like always talking tojing yun n shannon about MGS ppl n crystal n her fren is always talking together.. so i m like sitting at the corner alone... no one to talk to n because of tat i kinda dun wanna go cell group outings n stuff... but if i dun go its like causing trouble to others n i cant find an excuse to tell my parents and my best frens tat i dun wanna go to church cause of this reason. i cant possibly jus tell them i dun like my grp n therefore i dun wanna go church cause tats stupid... hai.... n another thing.... i didnt go to church for 2 weeks n i kinda feeling dry(spirituraly) no matter how hard i try to 'flow' in the spirit of worship i jus cant... tats y i dun feel like going to church..... thank u for reading this! :D